stop this train + home.

Last night I was lying in bed feeling sad, but I couldn't put into words why. I asked Tony to play John Mayer's "Stop This Train" and as we listened, I cried.



Stop this train
I wanna get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't, but honestly
Won't someone stop this train?

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find a way
To say that life has just begun

...

Once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing 'til you cry
When you're driving away in the dark

Singing, stop this train
I wanna get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can 'cause now I see
I'll never stop this train

When the song was over, I tried to explain why I was feeling this way, but I still couldn't. Just that I felt lost, like I don't have a home, don't know where I'm going. Tony said, "Here, I'll play another song for you" and he played Philip Phillips' "Home."



Hold on to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you're not alone
Cause I'm going to make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you're not alone
Cause I'm going to make this place your home

I still felt sad and lost, but a little less so.